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Eh, this one's no great shakes.  Wrote it a couple of months ago.  Found it and don't hate it as much as I thought, so might as well post, lol.  I just wanted to rationalize how underwhelmed Justin seemed by Brian's declarations early 511.


Loud
(Justin pov, post-510)
 

Said…

Too bright, hot, BOOM. Babylon in pieces. Michael could die.

Brian said…

Five years of fucking, fighting, feeling, breaking, breaking up. Bat, violin, cancer… never. Now…

Twice.

I’m so fucking happy I can hardly breathe. Shouldn’t be…

It’s hard to believe we’re broken up. Or… were?

Almost losing me made him realize… Like before.

He felt guilty then. Maybe he does now. That he wasn’t there?

Shaken. Scared. People dead. Michael…

Brian meant it, but…

Can’t think it means everything’s perfect now. Can’t even hold him to it.

When his head clears, he’ll probably regret loving me out loud.

 

by AHS

Date: 2007-12-16 04:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] jans-intentions.livejournal.com
When his head clears, he’ll probably regret loving me out loud.

So sad. But JUST what I imagine Justin was thinking...

Date: 2007-12-16 04:39 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com
At least for that moment at the end of 510, I have to believe he was completely happy... but after that, *sigh*, he had way too much time waiting at the hospital to overthink.

Thanks :)

Date: 2007-12-16 05:51 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sandid.livejournal.com
When his head clears, he’ll probably regret loving me out loud.

That was a great line.

So what else do you have hidden away?

Date: 2007-12-16 08:48 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com
Hmm... I think I wrote a few hundred words of Brian something around the same time... shelved it... I'm sure I'll finish it someday, lol... I'll make it a resolution for the new year :)

Thanks!

Date: 2007-12-16 08:17 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bbmaniac.livejournal.com
Just be grateful I'm not reading this, love... otherwise the last sentence would have made my cry like no other... and I would never have been crying with things like that... :-P.

LOVE YOU... AND I'M SO GLAR YOU ARE FEELING BETTER...

Date: 2007-12-16 08:46 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com
You can't admit to reading this one? Even with two mentions of concern for Michael? lol... Thanks, hon. Love you... and me, too (glad I'm feeling better lol)! :)

Date: 2007-12-16 02:16 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bbmaniac.livejournal.com
I MIGHT have read the first "Michael" and then the second one and then the words between them... and then, of course, curiosity took the best part of me and I finished it... but I have the Said… Too bright, hot, BOOM. Babylon in pieces. left, so, yeah... theoretically speaking I haven't read it :-P.
And the HUGE thing is still HUGE!
LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUU!

Date: 2007-12-16 09:49 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kari77.livejournal.com
All these thoughts and fragments tumbling around in his head, that's the perfect way to show that Justin is clearly under shock. Because of the bombing and Brian's declaration.

When his head clears, he’ll probably regret loving me out loud.
Noooooo! *sniffles*

Love it, although this last line breaks my heart.

Date: 2007-12-16 10:16 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com
Thanks, Kari! There was a LOT going on that day for poor Justin, lol. But we know Brian didn't regret TEH LOVE a bit! :)

Weren't you the one, hon, who wrote some really great drabble to do with 510, and I said I had one but (*if* I ever put it up) it was very different? It took me this long to decide I didn't hate it! lol

Date: 2007-12-16 11:06 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] kari77.livejournal.com
Ah, yeah, now I remember you talking about having started a 510-related drabble. You're right: yours couldn't be more different from the one I wrote. lol
Yours is much more realistic, while I would file mine under "ridiculously romantic", like most of my feeble writing attempts. ;-)

Date: 2007-12-16 12:09 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com
Pbbbllltt! ;-b

Ridiculously romantic is absolutely called for and always appreciated!

Date: 2007-12-16 05:11 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] bluemchenkaffee.livejournal.com
I haven't watched season 5 so far but of course I heard and read a lot about it.
It seems that Justin is in shock so he does not know what to feel but his conclusion is so sad:
When his head clears, he’ll probably regret loving me out loud

Susanne

Date: 2007-12-16 10:52 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com
My own viewing of S5 is rather... incomplete, let's say, lol. But the end of 510 I have seen many, many times! :)

He was *happy*... but by the next ep, when Brian's all "Didn't you hear what I said last night?" and Justin's "Yes, you said you loved me"... way too calm, with no smile, I'm like arrrgh, how did you get to that in your head, boy??? lol... But s'okay, as he is soon convinced :)

Forgot to actually say thank you! *hangs head*
Edited Date: 2007-12-16 10:56 pm (UTC)

Date: 2007-12-16 07:38 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] akintay.livejournal.com
I love it! After Brian's admission Justin looked so confused, like he had either a million things running through his mind or couldn't form a single one, so this is really realistic. And the last line would make me incredible sad if I didn't know that Brian did mean it!

Date: 2007-12-16 10:55 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com
Thanks! There was that moment of total disbelief (what?? after 5 years?? and I don't even have to beg or say it first??? lol), then pure *bliss*... I'm sure it wasn't until later that night, next morning that he started to ruin it with overthinking, lol.

Date: 2007-12-16 09:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] ladybugkay.livejournal.com
Guh. The last line hit me like a punch to the gut. What an astonishingly powerful end to this little drabble. Wow. :)

Date: 2007-12-16 10:57 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com
Oh yay! I love when I get a "guh" lol :)

I wrote a song once called "Love Out Loud." I didn't like the song much, but I love the phrase!

Thank you!

Date: 2009-02-21 11:33 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] tsarcasm.livejournal.com
messy heads seem to have gone around

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