I don't really know you *meant* it or not when you wrote this fic but I felt like crying right now. Although I so in love with Justin s1, the beautiful and innocent smile of his, I also felt hurt about the fact that Brian always ignored Justin's love, and Justin's desperate face sometime, etc. Just like your fic. He can't, he's not allowed to say I love you in front of Brian. He just can say it when he's alone, jerks off, fantasizes about Brian. It's really hurtful, and touching.