exam, a 300 word bj drabble

[wouldbedorothy]

Title: Exam
Author: AHS (wouldbedorothy)
Fandom/Pairing: QaF-US, Brian/Justin
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Dialogue only, post-cancer.  A moment in bed.
Beta: none
Disclaimer: Don't own them, or the show... *sigh*
Author's note: Thanks rromantic  and freakykat  for preview read.

Wrote this quickly in my dad's truck at some point on our cross-country trek to my new digs, lol.  I am finally all moved and settled (in Charlotte, NC) AND have internet!  YAY for catching up on fic! :-D  And double YAY and WOOT to all of you who've been hugging my wonderful Kat :-)

Exam
by AHS
 

“Justin, stop.”

“…What’s wrong?”

“……”

“What is it? Usually, all you can say is ‘more’ when my mouth is…”

“But you weren’t exactly sucking my balls for the pure fun of it just now, were you?”

“……”

“You think I couldn’t tell? You were giving me a fucking exam!”

“Brian, I was just…”

“Forcing yourself to be every bit as attentive to the fake ball so I wouldn’t notice? I finally took pity on you… So, you find anything?”

“No.”

“Hmm. Guess I get to keep this one a while longer.”

“It’s a good thing you don’t believe in apologies, because I won’t apologize for looking out for you… this time.”

“What do you mean, ‘this time’?”

“……”

“Justin. Talk.”

“I should have found the lump.”

“What?”

“Why didn’t I notice it? It’s not like we weren’t together all the time. Maybe I could have found it sooner. Maybe…”

“No. First of all, the trick who found it was a fucking doctor. You are not. I mean, he gave decent head, but now that I think about it, it was pretty clinical. I don’t want your magnificent blow jobs to turn into that. Please?”

“I guess, but…”

“Second, it was found early. My chances were about as good as they were going to get. You finding it a week earlier wouldn’t have made it not cancer.”

“I know.”

“Do you?”

“Yeah.”

“C’mere.”

“…I just don’t want anything to happen to you.”

“Look, I didn’t go through all that shit to check out anytime soon. Okay?”

“Okay… I’ll pretend not to notice next time you’re giving my balls a little extra care. And not to know it means you love me.”

“Uh…”

“If you dispute, I might be forced to pick up a doctor.”

“…Shut up and finish examining me, Sunshine.”

Comments

[sunshine63.livejournal.com]

you might have written this in the truck.... but it came out really nice!!!!!!! :) I like Justin "taking care" of Brian's health...

[wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com]

Thank you!

lol, I'm glad my dad never asked what I was writing ;)

[akintay.livejournal.com]

Aww, I love this. I can definitely see Justin 'blaming' himself, wondering why he didn't feel it and trying to examine Brian. I wish a scene like this had been in the show - Justin remained way to calm throughout the whole thing for my taste...

And yay for the internet :D

[wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Anna!

It's how I would have felt. I figured Justin would, too.

YAY is right! I am HOME! lol ;)

[rromantic.livejournal.com]

okay, I might have forgotten that you emailed it to me, AND I actually replied... but at least I do, seeing it now again, remember that I did read it!!

sorry honey, I really feel terrible for not keeping up with your masterpieces, especially since I so adore everything you write. or maybe that's the reason... you are INTIMIDATING!!!

still love this. :) LOVE Brian comforting Justin, making sure he doesn't feel guilty, and "You are not. I mean, he gave decent head, but now that I think about it, it was pretty clinical. I don’t want your magnificent blow jobs to turn into that"?

absolutely fucking perfect.

[wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com]

lol! You remember it after reading! That's plenty good enough for me :)

Intimidating? I say "ha" to that, but also thank youuuu, doll. *mwaaa*

NO, IT'S NOT ME....

[bbmaniac.livejournal.com]

it's funny, you know? I've always wondered about this... how Justin would feel knowing it was always there... now, as always always always, you gave me an answer...

STILL NOT READING THESE THINGS (I don't know why I put myself through this, though...).

Re: NO, IT'S NOT ME....

[wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com]

Because you LOVE ME! ;-b

Thank you, love, for being you... and glad I could provide.

Hehe, your icon... They're so adorkable.

[bluemchenkaffee.livejournal.com]

Oh I love how they take care of each other.

It's so Justin to blame himself that he hasn't found the lump himself.

Susanne

[wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com]

Oh I love how they take care of each other.

I know! *pets them*

Thanks much, Susanne! :)

[crazyevildru.livejournal.com]

oh this is sweet and sad and very nice!! justin feeling guilty about it... very sweet.

[wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com]

Thanks, dru!! :)

I am soooo looking forward to catching up on Want!

[camjakefan.livejournal.com]

That was sweet. Justin wanting to make sure Brian was okay.

[wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com]

Thank you very much! :)

[kari77.livejournal.com]

This is so sweet and caring and snarky and ... all of the above all over again.

Love it from beginning to end. =)

[wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Kari! I'm glad snarky snuck in with the sweet! ;)

[spike7451.livejournal.com]

I loved this, and these would be Justin's exact thoughts and actions.
Justin feeling guilty and Brian comforting him, so well written.

[wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com]

I'm so happy you think so :) Thank you!

*sigh* I wuv Brian in comforting mode...

[whatthefuckbenj.livejournal.com]

What a lovely and Justin-and-Brianesque way of saying they love each other =)

[wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com]

lol ;) J&B-esque... I like that.

Thank you!!

[sjmpets.livejournal.com]

that's how it should be. love and laughter.

[wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com]

Aww, well said :) Thank you!

[bndjsfaghag15.livejournal.com]

them and their goddamn self-imposed guilt trips! ugh, so glad brian can use rationale to convince justin to stop beating himself up.

[carolruga.livejournal.com]

Hi!!!

Just loved that part of the show, so it was great!

[wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com]

Oh, thank you very much!

[poly-hymnie.livejournal.com]

You really write dialogue prettily, I just love your dialogues *grins*. Especially because Brian's and Justin's are few, short, but intense, mixed with sarcasm and raw truth. That's exactly how yours are. And, well, Justin the world-savior will never be at rest |).
A new home? I hope you settle well and fast.

[wouldbedorothy.livejournal.com]

Okay I happened to stumble onto this comment again a month later and see that I never responded :( I might have let it go, but I LOVE what you said about me writing dialogue "prettily" so much, I had to say THANKS! :)

How's things at the bakery??

[poly-hymnie.livejournal.com]

Oh, my, it's practicaly the first comment I've ever posted on LJ, thanks for replying ^^'. Yeah, well, your dialogues ARE great.

Jee, don't ask me that... I just came back from there. Woke up at 5, got there and started working in a fever. We were six, but customers just kept coming. I stopped five minutes to eat one miserable croissant. And all those pretty, sooo sugary and yummy-looking cakes I could only stare at for 30 seconds and then pack. *sighs* Life is unfair. But everybody is really nice and I'm like the only hetero on the team. Uhm...

[tsarcasm.livejournal.com]

aww.