exam, a 300 word bj drabble

[wouldbedorothy]

Title: Exam
Author: AHS (wouldbedorothy)
Fandom/Pairing: QaF-US, Brian/Justin
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Dialogue only, post-cancer.  A moment in bed.
Beta: none
Disclaimer: Don't own them, or the show... *sigh*
Author's note: Thanks rromantic  and freakykat  for preview read.

Wrote this quickly in my dad's truck at some point on our cross-country trek to my new digs, lol.  I am finally all moved and settled (in Charlotte, NC) AND have internet!  YAY for catching up on fic! :-D  And double YAY and WOOT to all of you who've been hugging my wonderful Kat :-)

Exam
by AHS
 

“Justin, stop.”

“…What’s wrong?”

“……”

“What is it? Usually, all you can say is ‘more’ when my mouth is…”

“But you weren’t exactly sucking my balls for the pure fun of it just now, were you?”

“……”

“You think I couldn’t tell? You were giving me a fucking exam!”

“Brian, I was just…”

“Forcing yourself to be every bit as attentive to the fake ball so I wouldn’t notice? I finally took pity on you… So, you find anything?”

“No.”

“Hmm. Guess I get to keep this one a while longer.”

“It’s a good thing you don’t believe in apologies, because I won’t apologize for looking out for you… this time.”

“What do you mean, ‘this time’?”

“……”

“Justin. Talk.”

“I should have found the lump.”

“What?”

“Why didn’t I notice it? It’s not like we weren’t together all the time. Maybe I could have found it sooner. Maybe…”

“No. First of all, the trick who found it was a fucking doctor. You are not. I mean, he gave decent head, but now that I think about it, it was pretty clinical. I don’t want your magnificent blow jobs to turn into that. Please?”

“I guess, but…”

“Second, it was found early. My chances were about as good as they were going to get. You finding it a week earlier wouldn’t have made it not cancer.”

“I know.”

“Do you?”

“Yeah.”

“C’mere.”

“…I just don’t want anything to happen to you.”

“Look, I didn’t go through all that shit to check out anytime soon. Okay?”

“Okay… I’ll pretend not to notice next time you’re giving my balls a little extra care. And not to know it means you love me.”

“Uh…”

“If you dispute, I might be forced to pick up a doctor.”

“…Shut up and finish examining me, Sunshine.”

Comments

[sunshine63.livejournal.com]

you might have written this in the truck.... but it came out really nice!!!!!!! :) I like Justin "taking care" of Brian's health...

[akintay.livejournal.com]

Aww, I love this. I can definitely see Justin 'blaming' himself, wondering why he didn't feel it and trying to examine Brian. I wish a scene like this had been in the show - Justin remained way to calm throughout the whole thing for my taste...

And yay for the internet :D

[rromantic.livejournal.com]

okay, I might have forgotten that you emailed it to me, AND I actually replied... but at least I do, seeing it now again, remember that I did read it!!

sorry honey, I really feel terrible for not keeping up with your masterpieces, especially since I so adore everything you write. or maybe that's the reason... you are INTIMIDATING!!!

still love this. :) LOVE Brian comforting Justin, making sure he doesn't feel guilty, and "You are not. I mean, he gave decent head, but now that I think about it, it was pretty clinical. I don’t want your magnificent blow jobs to turn into that"?

absolutely fucking perfect.

NO, IT'S NOT ME....

[bbmaniac.livejournal.com]

it's funny, you know? I've always wondered about this... how Justin would feel knowing it was always there... now, as always always always, you gave me an answer...

STILL NOT READING THESE THINGS (I don't know why I put myself through this, though...).

[bluemchenkaffee.livejournal.com]

Oh I love how they take care of each other.

It's so Justin to blame himself that he hasn't found the lump himself.

Susanne

[crazyevildru.livejournal.com]

oh this is sweet and sad and very nice!! justin feeling guilty about it... very sweet.

[camjakefan.livejournal.com]

That was sweet. Justin wanting to make sure Brian was okay.

[kari77.livejournal.com]

This is so sweet and caring and snarky and ... all of the above all over again.

Love it from beginning to end. =)

[spike7451.livejournal.com]

I loved this, and these would be Justin's exact thoughts and actions.
Justin feeling guilty and Brian comforting him, so well written.

[whatthefuckbenj.livejournal.com]

What a lovely and Justin-and-Brianesque way of saying they love each other =)

[sjmpets.livejournal.com]

that's how it should be. love and laughter.

[bndjsfaghag15.livejournal.com]

them and their goddamn self-imposed guilt trips! ugh, so glad brian can use rationale to convince justin to stop beating himself up.

[carolruga.livejournal.com]

Hi!!!

Just loved that part of the show, so it was great!

[poly-hymnie.livejournal.com]

You really write dialogue prettily, I just love your dialogues *grins*. Especially because Brian's and Justin's are few, short, but intense, mixed with sarcasm and raw truth. That's exactly how yours are. And, well, Justin the world-savior will never be at rest |).
A new home? I hope you settle well and fast.

[tsarcasm.livejournal.com]

aww.